Rape of innocence
Published August 8, 2010 | 
This Note Isn’t For Everybody, Only the Hurting PeopleShare.
Ever felt worthless? This note is for you!
This morning I woke up thinking about my past, the mistakes I’ve made, and how unlikely it would seem that God would want to use me, a huge screw up according to history, to be a role model for anyone. But that is the beauty and power of God.
God is infinite in power and might, sovereign in His doings. He doesn’t need a person who believes in their own goodness and righteousness. After all, why would they give HIM glory for turning them around if in their own mind, they already had their lives together? No. God is always calling those lost, lonely, hurting souls to himself, those who feel useless, worthless, powerless, unwanted, unloved, unappreciated. Sure, He takes all kinds, but the Bible teaches us that not MANY wise, noble, educated, “all that” people are called, but that God calls the foolish, base, nothing things of the world to bring to nothing the things that are so that NO FLESH CAN GLORY IN HIS SIGHT! (Read 1 Corinthians 1)
So, what point am I making? You may feel useless and worthless. You may have slept around so much that you’ve forgotten some of the people’s names. You may have been a whore, a stripper, a pimp, a player, a drug dealer, a drug addict, a low life, a thief, a hood, a hustler, a liar, a robber, a fake, a simpleton, an abused woman, a used up man, or an abandoned child. Whatever you WERE, God is ready to turn it around and set you on a high place. You can’t get too low for God because His arms aren’t so shortened that they can’t reach you. You can’t bother him with your prayers because His ear is never too heavy to hear you.
I pray that you don’t allow condemnation, past mistakes and the judgmental glare of others to turn you away from God. I pray that you learn to accept that a horrible beginning sometimes is all that is needed for a blessed end. Me personally, for those who saw this “house” in the beginning (sex, lies and videotape), it was a hot horrible mess. But how do you see it now? Isn’t it just a testimony of God’s grace and power? Just because I live and breathe, because I’m still beautiful after being abused, because I’m still intelligent after dropping out of school the first time, because I own my own businesses and excel over almost all my equals though I don’t have a Master’s degree, because I have an unbelievably patient and loving husband though I used to hate men, because I am yet loved, called and justified by God though I’ve sinned repeatedly since I met Him, because I remain standing after all is said and done, because my heavenly Father testifies that I make Him smile, THIS IS PROOF of His unfailing love and mercy and unlimited power.
Therefore my brothers and sisters, be strong in the LORD and the power of HIS might. Lift up your eyes and look to the hills from where you help comes. Trust in the Lord and acknowledge Him in all your ways. Your path is being directed because we know and understand that a man’s heart devises a way but the Lord directs His steps. Though he may end up falling seven times or seven hundred times, he’ll get back up every one of them. Stop thinking it’s over because you screwed up. This, dear friends, is just the beginning. Maybe now you’ll stop thinking you’re so wonderful and realize you need Him. When you DO THAT, all of heaven will open to you. Amen.
The Rape of Innocence is my bestselling book and the story of my early life.
